Motives

I am really getting down about the novel. Not because I don't think i can do it, but because other people don't believe I can.

I had someone, who'll remain nameless, tell me today that pursuing a writing career was pointless, because there's no money in it.

Do you really think i want to write so i can make money? No, not at all. That's like number 100 on my list. I don't write simply because I think i can get somewhere with it.

I write because I love to write.

I write because I hope to touch someone with my words and thoughts.

i do not hope to attain potential fame, or anything for my writing. Yes, I want to get published someday, so I know my thoughts will live on long after I die. Morbid? perhaps, but it scares me to know that I may die and no one will have learned anything from me, or about me.

I am taking a chance with my life, by choosing to write rather than go into engineering or medicine, or something like that. While I am not guaranteed a wealthy lifestyle, you aren't either.

i will say this. I will probably get more fulfillment out of my life than you will.

This novel, while it may be crappy, is important to me. Because for once, I am going to finish what i started. See my word count? Almost halfway. I am so close to winning this, to accomplishing a goal I have had set in my mind since i was 12-to write a novel.

What have you done in your life? yay for sports teams in high school and marching band and relationships. You know what will matter most? The things you DID that made you something in your own eyes. And that is what this is for me. It's something I can show off and be proud of. I am 19 and on my way to completing a novel. What have you done?

i don't need your negativity, your criticism and your assumptions about the life I am going to lead, whether I will be successful or not. What is important to me right now is proving you wrong and I will on November 30th. because it will be done by then. And I will be proud of myself for accomplishing something you can't.

i am done with this rant for now, but come November 3oth i expect an apology. why? because you have underestimated me.

here's some advice:

Never underestimate those with dreams. theirs will come true, yours will not.